The beginning...

I found a girls webblog through an ana webring. I used to keep blogs all the time when I was younger but soon lost interest.
Something about her blog appealed to me and made me remember how such blogs can be used to talk about worries, events, and associate with other beautiful girls sharing my obsession.

Weight.

I'm anamia... ana most of the time until those disgusting and frightning black-out binges attack me and leave me feeling like the most awful piece of worthless dirt in the world.

I'm 20 years old. I live with my 3 year partner, Craig. I love him so much. He knows.
I'm in my final degree year at University.

I'm 5'5" and weigh 110lbls.
My SGU (short term goal weight) is 105lbls
My LGW (longterm) is 98lbs
My UGW (ultimate) is 95lbs.

I think I've been anamia for 2-3 years now.. I used to be a UK size 12-14 (US 8-10) and am now a UK size 6 (US size 2).
Next Tuesday I've got an appointment with a psychiatrist about my eating disorder(s).
I don't want to go but I promised my boyfriend I would for at least one session, then decide wether it'll help me, although to be perfectly honest I'm not ready for recovery and I don't WANT to recover yet.
Not until I'm as light as air.

To the girls who may read this, let me know you exist and we'll get through it together.
xxx